The July Chapter

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I have been wondering how to explain July for a few days. Having a readership in one way, is the most magical thing in the world. But when it comes to sad moments, it’s really hard to know what to say. Because to say July has been a happy month, would be lying to you. What I can say it that it’s been rich in “life experience”.

The most open thing I can say to you, is that I don’t necessarily want to talk about what has happened. If anything, I am just as confused as any outsider looking in would be. I’ve been in two minds – on the one hand I don’t know what to think or what to do. It has been impossible for me to be excited about anything the past week, even the things I usually love. Life lost a little bit of meaning.

On the other hand, I must keep reminding myself, that everything will be OK. Everything in life always is in the end. I am surprised by my own compassion this month, and at the same time proud. I have always wanted to be a nice person, above and beyond, and I think I have done it. In that sense I feel invincible, regardless of how much I hurt.

I wanted to write all of the above down, mostly to remind anybody reading this that no matter what happens, things do get better.

And now I will tell you about a couple of things I have loved this month, just to prove it’s not all doom and gloom!

At the beginning of the year I bought ‘Magpie Murders’ by Anthony Horowitz because Waterstones had their usual two for one offer, and I was buying something else. The title and cover caught my attention, and I remember loving ‘I Know What you Did Last Wednesday’ when I was younger – so it seemed like a good idea. Well, it was better than that!

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I became completely absorbed in the story immediately and couldn’t resist opening the pages every change I got. I ended up finishing it in three days, which is pretty fast reading for me! I’m debating uploading a video on it, so I won’t say too much now, but just know this is an absolute gem of a book. If you’re going on holiday, it’s perfect for beach entertainment.

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Aside from that, I also have a sudden obsession with George Ezra. His music has been a great comfort. Particularly lyrics like these:

You don’t have to be there, babe
You don’t have to be scared, babe
You don’t need of plan of what you wanna do
Won’t you listen to the man that’s loving you, whoa, whoa, whoa.

(Listen to the Man)

Well, I got my tracing paper, so that I could trace my clock
And the bastard face kept changing, and the hands, they wouldn’t stop
I was ripping out the battery, I received myself a shock
And to add insult to injury, I could still hear tick and tock

(Cassy ‘O)

I’ve got time
I’ve got love
Got confidence, you’ll rise above
Give me a minute to hold my girl
Give me a minute to hold my girl

(Hold my Girl)

Woah, that was the longest chapter that I have written in a while! Hope you don’t mind me unloading my feelings here, and thank you if you have taken the time to read through this post:

I love you all! Tell me all about your July in the comments c:

One thought on “The July Chapter

  1. Beautifully written as always my darling girl. You are definitely one of the kindest people I know, you’re mature, brave, forgiving and loving, the perfect daughter! (I hope it’s ok to say all this on here!) keep on writing, you never know what’s around the corner, onwards and upwards. Love ya. X

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