At the start of 2019 I felt very determined that this year I was going to do something all for myself. It can be frustrating at times when you feel like you’re not moving, when things don’t quite work how you wanted them to, but if there’s something I’ve learnt it’s that we don’t put a high enough value on time. Because that is always moving. It takes a little more than you expect to get things right.
I thought my social diary may take a breather entering the new year. That hasn’t been the case (and I love it). I’m able to create opportunities in front of me – which reminds me of one of my favourite quotes: If your ship doesn’t come in, swim out to it – and it’s been so much fun. I’m just so grateful to the world around me right now.
Now I feel like I’ve come full circle. A moment of sadness, a moment of mania, a moment of bliss. My thoughts keep churning through the cycle I’ve tried to portray in these three posts. There are some weeks I’m curious to dip back into the dating scene and some where I can’t think of anything worse. In all the confusion, I just try to remind myself that I’ll know what’s right in the moment, it’s not something to be planned.
As I said; time keeps moving. The story continues. For now I focus on being excited about the little things that happen because they’re making the big things better. If you can’t know how the path’s going to end, at least you can make the journey enjoyable.